thankfulness and ranting

the power washing is done, and our new stairs are built. i am so thankful for my dad's help with these projects. he is always there to lend a hand with stuff like that. my mom and grandma came along for the ride and spent the afternoon sitting in the shade of our maple tree enjoying pizza and conversation. it was a very nice weekend. 

but...

i came to a conclusion this morning and i need to rant. 

i am everyone's person. everyone. i am the one who lifts people up, keeps them encouraged, makes sure they are feeling ok and happy. it is my unspoken job to inspire everyone. and 99% of the time i do this job happily and with great enthusiasm because i thoroughly enjoy helping people and making people happy. it is something i have loved doing my whole life.  

but i realized this morning that it doesn't really feel like it is anyone's job to inspire me. sure, it is there if i ask for it from various people in my life. but no one seems to be generally worried about my well being. 

don't get me wrong.

i have so much love in my life. i am loved so deeply by my beloved Jeff and so completely by him and our families. 

but, it just feels like no one is "lifting me up" unless i ask for it. and that sucks, because no one wants to ask for inspiration...then you feel like a burden. 

alas...when we have no other job but to be everyone's hero...who's job is it to be the hero's hero?